okay. over reacting much? but, a part of the title is true. this day is one of the most saddest day I had. considering that it's my birthday, i should be happy, right? but i'm not. well, i'm happy 5 minutes after I woke up. then after that. -----------. sadness filled my day. :| it's my sweet sixteen today. (or should i say a few minutes ago) but i guess it shouldnt be called "sweet" since it's not my sweetest birthday party ever.
why sad, you may ask. I dont know, maybe because only few people really knew my birthday. they wouldnt greet me, of course if i hadnt told them it's my birthday. aww. i am so damn sad! i hate it!~ argh! i want to cry. i want to scream. i want to blame somebody for my sadness but i cant. because it's me who created my sadness, why blame other people? siiiigh.
Other people today are happy. happy for me, because it's my birthday. of course i'm thankful that God gave me another year to live. But what can i do? sadness is the theme of my day. Half of me says that i should be happy, i celebrated my birthday in Batangas. i didnt even knew that i'm going to celebrate there. until they gave a cake amd made me make a wish. i forgot what i wished for. i'm sorry. ergh. i'm glad my birthday is over. i hope, my sadness would fade away while i sleep. i hope it wont affect my dreams-- in a way that my dreams would turn into nightmares.
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ugh. i already miss aaron. i miss hiiiiim sooooo much! :| though he'll only be gone for a few weeks. (15 days to be exact). i'll still miss him, :(
okay. over reacting much? but, a part of the title is true. this day is one of the most saddest day I had. considering that it's my birthday, i should be happy, right? but i'm not. well, i'm happy 5 minutes after I woke up. then after that. -----------. sadness filled my day. :| it's my sweet sixteen today. (or should i say a few minutes ago) but i guess it shouldnt be called "sweet" since it's not my sweetest birthday party ever.
why sad, you may ask. I dont know, maybe because only few people really knew my birthday. they wouldnt greet me, of course if i hadnt told them it's my birthday. aww. i am so damn sad! i hate it!~ argh! i want to cry. i want to scream. i want to blame somebody for my sadness but i cant. because it's me who created my sadness, why blame other people? siiiigh.
Other people today are happy. happy for me, because it's my birthday. of course i'm thankful that God gave me another year to live. But what can i do? sadness is the theme of my day. Half of me says that i should be happy, i celebrated my birthday in Batangas. i didnt even knew that i'm going to celebrate there. until they gave a cake amd made me make a wish. i forgot what i wished for. i'm sorry. ergh. i'm glad my birthday is over. i hope, my sadness would fade away while i sleep. i hope it wont affect my dreams-- in a way that my dreams would turn into nightmares.
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ugh. i already miss aaron. i miss hiiiiim sooooo much! :| though he'll only be gone for a few weeks. (15 days to be exact). i'll still miss him, :(
steff 061393. Augustinian. Future PTRP. I blog my feelings out. I rant nothing but nonsense and it will probably bore you to death :p So, you can leave if you want. .
